*** just so you know ***
Ive been so quiet about my personal problems since the start,.. ive always encouraged people.. but i do think deep alot... the warrior is a child... im so weak without my Father, im worth to nothing without Him, nwy, i was made something because of Him.. But, HoNEsTLy, i don't deserve all this He has for me, if you only know... But God has seen something about me i should see... I want to be honest with you all, im a bit sad now,... lots of reasons why, it has nothing to do with Love, alright!?.. etc... nothing to do with that... i DONT, DONT like to think about that!... but i like it when things go exactly the way you don't want them to be... it gives you a "STOP!" sign, to remind you.. "Hey, Jay,... i know you're doing good, but check out some of the basics you've forgotten..." Im not saying that im hiding something.haha.. but i've got problems sometimes i just cant handle anymore, but i suddenly realize i made it.. waaaa!, but this time, it's really, really, really,..hard... some of my men whom i loved, whom ive trained are ATTACKED!... and God has challenged me ALOT!.. as in ATTACK!... it's hard.... i cant do it on my own, as always.. i depend fully on GOD... GOD has heard my heart's cry... I've always been wanting to see my men rise up and experience God more than i had... anyway, I'LL KEEP the REST!...
God is my strength! He's proven himself FAITHFUL! i just wrote this for something to look back and laughed at... i know the end is always VICTORIOUS, im even enjoying while im sad.. really! funny noh!? it's all emotions, I DONT depend my FUTURE on what i FEEL NOW!... it's way too far... EMOTIONS is one big trick if you decide because of it,...
so, just so you all know,... you may see me never in problems, never sad...
well i do!.. im human!... i get sad, i get hungry, i cry, i take a bath, i jump, i dance(in secret), i sing, i chat(with GOD!;p), im not perfect... =)
"DISCIPLESHIP is not about PERFECTION but about you,PROGRESSING.. right!?"
I'll be out,... yea, so... it'll take awhile... a month,week, year!?.. i dunno..depends... waaaa!
so, to cci, jst so you knw, im always eager to msg you but you know i can't.hehe because God challenged me..right? well, we'l have time cci.. =) i miss yOu just so you know... if you just know how much..hehe
well, to be safe, Ricci was my classmate since grade 5,and was my crush..haha, we had time to meet before,..june '05 she's a Pastor's Kid,well.. we talked about Christian life..etc.. and of course, Love Life,..BUT!.. BUT!... just to encourage her to wait for the Right One... NOT FOR ANYTHING ELSE... she's special to me too!, you know why!?... she helped me alot in many ways!..hehe right cci!?.. a friend il meet someday! =) ill always miss you!, ei, cci, i do check your myspace almost everyday!..hahaha i even have a list of the time you logged!! haha... weird!,.. im not obssessed! haha.. lalang!... cci, you take good care ha!... do it all for His Glory!,for your own good too!... il msg you very soon... =)
danish princss,ei, well, its been so long since i heard from you.. ive been checkng your blog once inawyl,..yea.. i always get encouraged with what you said about me!... and, just so you know, Im going to Aussie it's because you inspired me ALOT!,.. remember when we're at the bus,just us two..? i told you about aussie, you're the first one who knew that..because you were the one who inspired me!... and i know, we've had good times, but it's enough my friend,im hoping to spend time with you more with the rest of the jologs!... well, you inspired me to make songs... remember what you said.. "Your songs are simple but sincere"... really,it's deep in my mind,heart! and now, im doing it.. anyway, im hoping to hang out with you too when God allows... You know, i admired your tremendous change spiritually,... it's the result of you being INLOVE with God... and i hope you're ever increasing with your intimacy with Him... your GREAT reward is yet to come my friend...
reader :hey, Jay, why are there special mentions?..
Jr: hehe... wala lang.. paki mo!?... hahaha...
reader: k
Jr: I just feel like encouraging them for they were good friends of mine whom i look up to,.. they are of my age kasi e.... alam mo un.. i appreciate the few people i know whose of my age... wala lang... but they are JUST friends,as what they know of course... aba,who am i!?.. huh!... hehehe...
reader: wushu..k
Jr: wala akong magawa!!!! hahaha... now im happy..hehe.. but still sad!... but!
Ill FIGHT A GOOD FIGHT!, FINISH THE RACE!, KEEP THE FAITH!...
We're MORE THAN CONQUERORS!... so... yea,.. bye for now... my nxt blog will be my TESTIMONY after being SAD now... ahahaha.. GLory to God!!!!... not me... =p
miss you...heheh reader:who!?... jr:you.. hehehe
posted by jr @ 2:18 AM
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